My road to recovery
With indigenous nature life
From trauma to healing
I experienced nature as a healing force because it works verry therapeutic, because i know that nature heals me and supports me when i was young and because nature offers me comfort when i have a bad day and i feel said because in my bloodlines and descendant of the people of nature i feel in balance and i know when people lived in and with nature it has a good influence on people it because people where in the old times with the old ways a happy and lucky life then in this time you live between 4 walls and it makes you said and unlucky like experience stress and it makes you sick because you have no healing force by your side as support and the houses in the past where made of wood and other natural stuff you can feel the powerfull force of nature it makes you feel better and happiër in life, we lost it in this bizzy hurry times and that is why i write this blog because we must go back to nature and make nature again a part of our live and going back to our roots it gives us peace and balance in our life.
On my subpages you can read diffrent experiences story's and why nature and our indigenous Dutch roots wil helps us heal ourselfs not only psychological but also mind, body and soul.
Child time, trauma time
As child i had hard times like trauma's of children who tread me not well and abuse me and at the same time my parents difforce both and my real biological dad tread me and my mother bad like spitting on the window of the car and show some agression because he was a alcoholic men, me andxmy mother did't care he was not interesting in me and my mom he promissed me a lot of things and what he promissed it didn't come true, i loosing my trust in him, he love his alcoholic drinks and work and his mother more then my mother like always listening to his mother and doing all what his mother said to him and never listening to my mother and me and don't give us love, i come from a time i not learn what real love is because i saw not love around me and experienced no love from my parents only a negative way of life and the screams they doing to eatch other.
I had also trauma's as child of bullying kinds everywhere in my town and also on schools until my 18 years and then i experienced it in people who bullied me in adult version i see it in the way they tread me diffrent then others, they laughing in your face and be at distance and to others they are open amd not at distance in conversations, this way give me always triggers at time of the past but i can manage that even it is sometimes difficult, i see this happening more when i meet spirtual people, maybe i am not open or the same as them but i have always a difficult life with people like i can't open myself for 100% because i had bad experiences with a lot of people that is maybe i loose in the past how to talk with people like to have great conversations because in the past i loose when i was 14 how to talk and having good conversations to open myself but i try all the time but not always having succes with it because people always judge and i feel that because i have the sence of feeling because i am High Sensitive Person and i get the gift of sence everything verry deep also i feel things sometimes when bad things going to happen, it is also my 6th sence and my gift of mother earth.
Nature my healing force
On my subpages you can choose diffrent kinds of experience story's i have and why our nature can help us heal in diffrent kinds of ways.
I always find magical experiences in and with nature.
The relationship with nature and the connection i have with nature is special.
I make sometimes pictures of trees and all trees around me, some trees are old, this forest is sinds 1850 build by beautiful persons of Landgoed Schovenhorst in Putten Gelderland, forest with a lot of other worlds and other energy and the gates you walk in are diffrent and high and low vibrated, i understand now the in between 2 worlds who meet eatch other on a same level and on the same spot you walk in, the world of the unseen and magical experienced deep inside me.
Some people don't experience it but it is there, i was always a believer and deep feeler and my gift of nature and mother earth is the gift of feel things and the gift of to be a High Sensitive Person and use it everywhere, i always have a good sence of what is right and wrong that is maybe the reason why i can trust some people and who i can't trust and be little bit on a distence in life because i want peace, love, respect and i want to be seen like other people who always want to be seen and not a place to live in the shadows and to be a invinsible life i want to be seen,
To be heard that people give me a voice that i deserve like anyone else who always ask to much attention in a group of people but i had verry bad experiences in the past i am recover from that is why i have sometimes triggers if i see that people treat me diffrent then others but i can handle that i think it is not my problem, your energy is the problem and this is why i am always on the background in life because a lot of people who always suck like asking to much attention from others are the ones who always have the big mouths and are never on the backgrounds in groups, i always learn to be myself, my true self to be not a sucker or to be to much asking for attention but a lot of people like me who doing the same be normal are always the ones who get hurt in life and that is why i live a lonely life because i love the peace and quiet life i lived in my fullest.
" If we connect with our roots we can connect ourselfs with nature, nature heals us in spirit, body and mind, what we can learn from nature? That in everry bad situation nature is the key to heal our selfs not only to be with nature but also to use al healing tools it has like herbs it offers us to healing us, nature is medicine no hospital they makes us sick it wil never makes us better, good food is good mood i always saying ."
Debby Emmerig
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